Right now, I don’t feel like doing anything. I don’t even feel like writing. Or listening to music. Or reading. Or doing my homework. Or playing my guitar. I feel like talking to someone. But EVERYONE’s busy. And it’s pissing me off. I don’t even know why. I have this weird anger inside me. I feel like breaking something. I feel like screaming. I hate isolation. I don’t like feeling alone. I’m not even sad right now. I’m pissed off. Okay, now I feel like crying. Not sad-crying. Pissed off crying. Why don’t I have a life? Okay, fine, I do, but I don’t feel like doing any of that right now. What is wrong with me? Music is supposed to be my safe haven. I don’t feel like going to my safe haven. I don’t feel like reading and escaping into another world. I FEEL LIKE TALKING TO SOMEONE. WHY CANT SOMEONE BE THERE FOR ME, FOR ONCE? I’m ALWAYS THERE, when someone needs me. RIGHT WHEN I NEED SOMEONE, everyone choses to abandon me.
Okay, apparently, my best friend is “at a jewellery store” (I have no idea, WHY.), another one of my friends “just landed in Kerela”, and a bunch of others are “studying”, or “doing their project” or “out”, or some crap like that. I KNOW YOU’RE LYING,BITCHES! I KNOW YOU’RE JUST SAYING THAT SO I CAN LEAVE YOU ALONE. I KNOW YOU ALL HATE ME.
*bursts into tears*
Watch t.v. Shows at that point. It helps ,trust me.
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